• Letter to my Mum

    Mum, Over the years you have been my rock, through my birth with Chloe, to helping my out when I didn’t know what I was doing with a newborn and even helping me with Maisie. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have you around. I value the advice you give me, even if sometimes I don’t want to hear it, when i’m at my worst you still manage to pick me up off the floor and dust me down and make me see reason in my madness. You always have my back and always there to help me out of sticky situations. Even though I got…

  • Our weekend

    So I was recently told by a friend about this country park Rushmere. I wasn’t too sure what expect, as there wasn’t really much information on the website, as far as I could see it was just a massive park that you could walk, bike or horse ride around.  It did mention on the website about a sculpture trail, where you could find fairy doors, wood sculptures that the kids could play on and a must have photo taken in the giants chair (which of course we did)!! When we got there, we parked our car in the car park on site and it was £3 parking for all day…

  • why I decided not to go back to work

    Since I was 16 I have had a job, I have worked for retail stores, and pubs, and salons, in fact I even worked for a cleaning company for a while. when my daughter who I had when I was 18 was 6 months, I returned to education where I studied beauty therapy, adamant that beauty was what I wanted to go into, however in the back of my mind it wasn’t.Honestly I didn’t know what I wanted to do, I continued with my education and ended up doing nothing with it. After I finished college I needed to earn more money than I was getting from my weekend job…

  • Being a parent

    Behind the scenes I would love to say that being a parent is rainbows and unicorns, but lets face it that is not the case, and all these mums who put a full face of make up on every day and look like a million dollars well congratulations Susan you must have a lot of help please send the maid round to help me out. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, I think I lose my shit at least 20 times (thats a lie I loose it more than that on a daily basis).My kids don’t get me wrong, I love them more than…

  • The story Part 3

    Part 3 I hope your okay I stare at my phone for what feels like ages, trying to take in what he has sent me, do I reply do I call him, do I just leave it? I dial his number and he answered straight away do you like Ferrero Rocher why someone left them on my doorstep and I don’t like them, I’m asking if you do? I don’t know but I thought you did no I don’t, never really been a fan oh sorry I thought you liked them wait what? the chocolates they were from me why didn’t you just put your name? because I didn’t want you to know they were from me, open the door i’m outside …

  • The story part 2

    Part 2: I decide not to tell him. Not because I don’t want to but because I know him and it won’t make him stay, it won’t change his mind and it certainly won’t fix our broken relationship. I keep telling myself it’s for the best, but I really don’t know what is anymore.  It goes 6 and there is a knock at the door, it’s him. He has a key why doesn’t he use his key? I wait to see if the lock goes, there’s another knock, so I get up and open the door,  Hello I’ve just come to get my stuff Holly Can I not even say…

  • The Story

    So over the next few weeks, I will be posting snippets of a story I have written.  Please feel free to comment to share and anything else you want to do, I look forward to hearing all the comments.  PART ONE: I hear the light go on and the toilet go, it’s 5 in the morning and he’s getting ready for work, making as little noise as he can do not to wake me or the baby, but it’s too late I’m awake and watching him tiptoe around the bedroom. He climbs on the bed gives me a kiss and tells me he loves me. As he goes to walk…

  • 10 things you didn’t know about me

    I want to share a few things that people don’t know about me, or some things that will surprise people. so lets start In upper school I was bullied – this is something I have spoken of, and people who bullied me will know who they are. I still see them occasionally waiting for the snide comments our the horrid looks, it was more verbal and mental bullying than physical I was never “ruffed up” but I was called alot of things and at one point I wanted to leave school and not come back, I didn’t want to get on the bus and I wanted to stay in bed and do nothing, to this day I do not know why they did it and trust…

  • Day in the sun

    The weather over the bank holiday weekend has been absolutely amazing, rather than staying cooped inside on such beautiful days we spent the days out in the sun shine, in the paddling pool and my kids dad brought them a trampoline which has kept them entertained for hours. for me personally the heat can get too much and I do end up sitting in the shade for a time out but the girls love the sun and love being outdoors. So after the weekend of sun and fun, and my eldest went back to school, my youngest myself and my best friend and her little girl took a walk, to…

  • top 3 Best and Worst baby products

    Back in 2013 I became a first time mother to my beautiful daughter Chloe-Mae. I had just turned 19, still living at my mums house, with about £600 in the bank to get me through. I would love to say that I had everything I wanted for me and my daughter but the reality was I didn’t. it didn’t take me long to realise that, Im pretty sure I brought every single product on the market, and everything HAD to be branded. I soon learnt that it was paying for the brand name rather than the quality of the product. moving on 5 years later, I now have another baby,…