• Letter to my Mum

    Mum, Over the years you have been my rock, through my birth with Chloe, to helping my out when I didn’t know what I was doing with a newborn and even helping me with Maisie. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have you around. I value the advice you give me, even if sometimes I don’t want to hear it, when i’m at my worst you still manage to pick me up off the floor and dust me down and make me see reason in my madness. You always have my back and always there to help me out of sticky situations. Even though I got…

  • Our weekend

    So I was recently told by a friend about this country park Rushmere. I wasn’t too sure what expect, as there wasn’t really much information on the website, as far as I could see it was just a massive park that you could walk, bike or horse ride around.  It did mention on the website about a sculpture trail, where you could find fairy doors, wood sculptures that the kids could play on and a must have photo taken in the giants chair (which of course we did)!! When we got there, we parked our car in the car park on site and it was £3 parking for all day…

  • The story part 2

    Part 2: I decide not to tell him. Not because I don’t want to but because I know him and it won’t make him stay, it won’t change his mind and it certainly won’t fix our broken relationship. I keep telling myself it’s for the best, but I really don’t know what is anymore.  It goes 6 and there is a knock at the door, it’s him. He has a key why doesn’t he use his key? I wait to see if the lock goes, there’s another knock, so I get up and open the door,  Hello I’ve just come to get my stuff Holly Can I not even say…

  • top 3 Best and Worst baby products

    Back in 2013 I became a first time mother to my beautiful daughter Chloe-Mae. I had just turned 19, still living at my mums house, with about £600 in the bank to get me through. I would love to say that I had everything I wanted for me and my daughter but the reality was I didn’t. it didn’t take me long to realise that, Im pretty sure I brought every single product on the market, and everything HAD to be branded. I soon learnt that it was paying for the brand name rather than the quality of the product. moving on 5 years later, I now have another baby,…

  • Plane watching

    Were not a weird family So, I haven’t felt myself for the past few days, Maisie hasn’t really slept and I have felt really down, I plan on doing things and then end up changing my plans and doing nothing. However today (Sunday) the kids were driving make insane, so I suggested plane watching.. why? why in the world would you want to go plane watching, but OMG let me tell you I am obsessed and that sounds so stupid and weird but I am. When I was younger I used to go on holiday to Malta – beautiful country. My mum would go to Mcdonalds, buy our dinner, Then we…

  • We went to disney

      only just getting round to writing about our experience in Disney land Paris. I want to say it was magical and amazing and stress free but reality is, we should have waited until the kids were a lot older to go, however that doesnt mean we didn’t have fun. because we did, my 5 year old at the Start was so excited about seeing everything but since I last went a lot of things have changed – but then again that was about 20 odd years ago. when we first arrived to disney it was a lovely day, but then mid day is when the rain started, and let…

  • Letter to 18 year old me

    finally your legal to drink! this year is an important year, you have applied for uni, coventry isn’t it, you get accepted. so don’t panic too much even with the rubbish grades you got. this year is the year mum and dad get a divorce. it is going to destroy you, and everything you once knew is going to be muddled, mum is going to start dating a guy called James, your going to treat him in the worst way possible, don’t, because in years to come you will relay on him. he’s actually a good person. its been 7 years since you last saw or spoke to Danny, and…

  • Will I ever feel normal again

    I have started this blog post over and over trying to pin point the moment I started to not right, but I don’t think I can actually remember, from as far back as I can remember it has always been there. the first memory I have is when I was I think 12/13 and I had my first boyfriend, I was smitten with this guy who I had fallen for, first love and all that, and he would message me and say he was coming round to see me at a certain time and then not show up, then the time would change and change and change, until it got…